The highs and lows of life!

Well the last couple of weeks have been quite a rollercoaster around here. I went from barely being able to look at my husband because I was so angry and hurt and having him out of the house for a few days, to us being able to sit down and talk through things in a way we haven't done for a long time and actually make some positive changes in our marriage. I've reaslised that it wasn't just Brett's struggles that were affecting our marriage, but that it was a symptom of us letting lots of other stuff get in the way of our time together and feeling like strangers sharing a house for a long time.

Our brief time apart has turned out to be a really positive thing as it made us truly appreciate each other more and finally thresh out some things with each other that have needed addressing for a while, including our parenting strategies with Jaden as that has been a very big stress area for us for a while. We're also embarking on the love dare over the next 40 days and I've also started reading another book for couples that has already helped me realise that a lot of the stuff that has been driving us nuts about each other are normal male and female differences that we need to learn to understand and work with rather than get annoyed at each other. So we're a work in progress but feeling very positive and enjoying each other in a way we haven't done for quite some time!

We've also started going to a new church and are trying to get involved in a small group there to get to know some new people and Brett is also joining a men's course there next term. Jaden is loving the kids programme and I will start going along to the women's meeting once Jaden is at school. We were at our old church over Easter weekend for the last time and it wasn't sad like I thought it would be, I think I have been grieving the change for a few weeks and am now just ready for our new adventure with God.

I feel like I'm in the middle of a major internal renovation time with God at the moment, that it's not just outside things that are changing for our family, like church, school, new baby etc, but also time for some internal work that I've neglected for a long time, especially my attitudes to many things, including my husband and also my oldest child who is really testing my every limit at the moment!!!! I'm very thankful for God's patience with me, His gentleness and His neverending love as He leads me through places in my heart that need His touch!