After all that God has been showing me lately about the beauty in my son it stands to reason that there would be a time to test my new found 'wisdom'. Today was that day! One of those days filled with disobedience, meltdowns etc, topped off with a teething baby... I thought maybe I fed both my children grumpy pills for breakfast!!! I just had to laugh or I would've cried.
The doubts began ... can I really commit to staying home with Jaden every day without going insane? Am I really the kind of mum that I need to be to pull this off? Maybe not, but I know I'm not alone. God is always with me and we'll do this together!!!!! Here's to a new day tomorrow filled with God's fresh mercies (and hopefully less grumpy children :-))
On a brighter note Bethany was so close to rolling over today but didn't qute get there, so exciting to see her growing. I love watching her play with her toys now and focus really hard to get her hands to go where she wants them. In the bath today I was holding her so she could sit up and she was so excited to find her feet, I realised she always has socks on and it was probably the first time she'd seen her naked toes. Adorable :-)
I had to include a photo of my little girl eating her pumpkin today, she ate it all up (apart from what she smeared on her face and then rubbed everywhere once she got her hands in the way). Such a cute pumpkinhead. Shame I didn't think to get a photo of Jaden today. I sent him outside to play after his 3rd meltdown of the day and he was calm and content for a good hour playing in a patch of dirt. Of course he added water when I wasn't looking and got himself nice and muddy. He got banished to the laundry to clean up before coming inside, but he was as happy as Larry for those few moments of the day :-)
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2 comments:
I'm sure you'll find many many days where you don't think you are cut out for HS. HS is such a HUGE task and it requires such a HUGE shift in thinking from the old way or 'normal' way of doing things, to a whole new 'better' way. It is not easy BUT if it is the way God has called you, then it is the BEST way for you!! And obedience to Him brings wonderful, beautiful rewards. Take heart my friend and know that He has called you to a task that will allow you to strip away more of yourself and become more like Him! On days when its all too much, leave the schooling and just enjoy your children before they grow up any quicker. Remember you only need to walk one step at a time with Him holding your hand, don't stress about where you are going just follow Him! AND it may be hard, VERY hard, but that doesn't mean its not from Him, sometimes the straight and narrow is exactly that!
You are a brilliant mother and I know God would not call you to this is you weren't able to do it in his strength!
Luv Donna
Thanks Donna :-)
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