It could be hormones, it could be that I am just so unbelievably tired, it could be end of year burn out, maybe all of it together, but I am totally overwhelmed at the thought of home schooling again next year. I have plans and ideas in my head but when looking for resources and trying to write things down I just get so overwhelmed by it. I am conscious of just how hard it's going to be having a newborn and a 14 month old at the same time and am trying to be realistic about my ability to cope with 2 babies and give Jaden the time and attention he needs for school as well.
I have also been feeling sad lately that he is missing out on a lot of the fun and social things that he enjoyed about school, like christmas concerts, book parades etc. We have been going semi-regularly to a home school group but have really found the strucure of it unhelpful as it's ice skating and the kids are all over the place skating. I've met some mums there but he's only met a couple of kids and then he can't find them again on the ice.
I really felt when I brought him home this year it was the right thing to do and I know it's been good for him to have some chill out time, especially since the class teacher he had was not suited to working with an aspergers child at all (I made several complaints about her actually and the principal knows she is a large part of the reason I pulled him out, she isn't going to be back there next year so maybe I'm not the only one who wasn't happy with her!). But maybe he just needed a break and could go back to school after all, cause I'm not sure I can do this indefinately so he may have to deal with school again at some point.
I'm not sure I would send him back where he was. It's a lovely little christian school but it's a long way away and trying to get organised to get out there with 2 littlies is gonna stress me, plus the fees are a big drain on the budget. We actually have our local public school about 20 metres up the road, he could walk there while I watched from the front yard. It's not the best school around but that's because of the community where we live and aren't we supposed to be a light to our communities even if we'd rather hide behind the door and ignore all the unsavoury elements we think we're better than?!
Hubby and I are gonna keep praying about what to do cause I am just feeling so emotional, overwhelmed and confused right now and wanna do the best thing by my son but have no idea what that really is at that point. I would really value your prayers. Thanks.
.JPG)
Summer 2021
4 years ago
4 comments:
I am praying for you Carolyn!!
If it helps at all, the questions you are asking we have being asking as well. I think they are normal questions that most HS ask themselves often. Praying for peace and answers for you. My advice would be to not make any decisions right now in such a busy period, but maybe wait until things are quieter and then see how you feel. HTH
Luv Donna
I, too am praying for you.
Could you organise to meet some of the Mums from your homeschooling group in a different environment than ice-skating? Perhaps meet in someone's home, so that your son can spend time with other children his own age.
Homeschooling is always questions, questions and more questions, and even when we think that we have everything down perfect, there's always the niggling doubts that creep in.
(((Caz)))
Blessings,
Jillian
I am praying for your too Carolyn :)
I know that when we seek the Lord on this sort of stuff, He freely give His wisdom (James 3:13 - such an encouraging verse).
I also wanted to say that when we've had doubts, concerns, etc its been really helpful for us to go back to our main goals and line it up with that. For us personally, some of our goals are to disciple our children in the ways of the Lord, winning their hearts today, helping them to learn the Word of God and encouraging them to cultivate their relationships with the Lord, with us as their parents and with their siblings and giving them a loving environment in which they can discover and enjoy God's world. For us, homeschooling is the option that has lined up with our goals for our children. Now having said all that, other people have other goals and yours might be more to do with social interaction for J - whatever the case, the Lord will show you what is right for your family, I know He will!
May His peace, which surpasses all understanding, guard your heart and your mind in Christ Jesus...Philippians 4
Call if you like too mate :)
Love Lus x
Take the time to pray, commit all of this to the Lord, and take a breather. It is always hard to make big decisions when you are stressed and overwhelmed. Wait until the New Year and look on it with fresh eyes. What are your goals in Jaden's education, in your family. What can you realistically cope with. Are you putting too great expectations upon yourself in his school work? etc. etc.
I also think meeting with other parents in a social setting would be helpful. I have found that many home school families have children with various learning and health problems, and are usually very helpful.
May God bless you all as you deal with all these things.
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